FHM Philippines 100 Sexiest Women of the World 2012 part 02

The World Trade Center, Pasay City 8PM

I WAS TRYING to convince myself to be happy and you know what I think. I AM.. HAHAHAHA.. FHM kaya yan kailangan ko sumaya. Sa Totoo lang... umatake na naman Bipolar ko lately.. intermittent ang ang nararamdaman ko kung magpapakamatay ba ako...to the extremes. And I guess I just have to lift myself a little higher... para lang maiwas sa underground anxiety na hindi naman makakatulong sa akin. I want to update my blog, I would not hide the fact that Loner ako... thanks at madami pa ding creatures na nagtyatyaga sa pagview ng blog ko... Actually, naglalaro sa 700-800 viewers na stats ko Anyways...ayoko ng magkwento madami na kayong nalalaman sa akin Uhm. I'm just moving forward bit by bit... Marami na rin nangyari sa mga araw ko na hindi ko na susulat.. my emotional days yesterday...medyo mahirap din mag-isa... ayun kunyari busy-busyhan.. but actually I can't find the words to share everything..because I was so depressed.. but now.. I am OPTIMISTIC na ulit and I guess I'll try to update as long na kaya ko....
Uhmm... I am trying my best not to expand so much of the bad thoughts.. I am trying my best to just buried all those negative thoughts sa aking drafts... and that's it. I'm just trying to update my blog... and ayun. I know my blog had changed a lot...(naging worse), but I guess things really change db.. I need to adjust a lot of my time kung gusto ko talaga maging active blogger...I don't know.. I'm planning for something kase.. so I don't know if it will ever happen pa ba in the future..baka hindi na... I'm glad my mentor Edmund Chua is doing well on his blogging career... so ayun... Fabmanila.blogspot.com... try to check.. I have to go back on my updates on FHM so here it goes.

Ganito ba ang mapapala ko ang ganitong crowd sa WTC ang kumuha ng malayo sa subject na kailangan mo pang gamitin ang long lens no way! Anyway, pasensya na kung kanina kung medjo malungkot, pero sabi ko nga di ba, sa dating blog ko, happiness is a choice. Although kailangan din naman i-let out ang mga nararamdaman, kahit once or twice lang. Gaya ng mga photographers na yan mas gusto pa nilang kumuha sa Stage Flatform at magsiksikan pero ang kukunan nila ay malayo nman, mas gusto ko pa talaga makasama sila Ruby, Leslie, Jaszm at etc... dito sa kinatatayuan ko.